Friday, September 3, 2010
Driving me nuts!!
So...yesterday lol I went to see Eclipse and A-Team at a lower theater here in town, it's an old local place that I absolutely love! One; Because it is SOO much cheaper! and two! because it's historical lol really cool to be watching movies in a place that's over 60 years old! I'm young, 60 seems like a lot! Haha and I liked both movies! It was great! Today my boyfriend and I have been together for a month! whoo! lol except we are not talking...he made me angry yesterday because he was annoyed that I stayed a few hours late at work and it cut into "our" time. Which I understand, we don't get a lot of time to ourselves, but really he works two jobs! What am I supposed to do when I am offered hours and I really need them? He's not going to pay for my bills! Just ugh! Gah! He hasn't talked to me for almost two days now and I really do not want to even try talking to him. I feel like I really should want to, but I don't...he made a comment before he stopped talking to me that he couldn't wait a few days to see me. Sweet, right? Basically he's horny so I told him he could, just y'know, deal with it lol and he said no it doesn't work, I need you because I don't want to have to find it somewhere else. Bad move, dude and he so does not even realize!! I am not going to be the one to give in, I realize this is really me just being stubborn and probably not good for our relationship, but c'mon! Really?! He and I have been friends for almost ten years now and awhile back he decided he liked me, I guess? But now it just seems like he wanted to be physical with me.At first, I wasn't interested because I really liked this other guy who I work with and I just was so hooked on him and was not interested in my friend/now bf. But then the guy I really liked hurt me, emotionally, I mean. And I said, ok, I am done I cannot do this with him anymore. He obviously doesn't want me that way and idk if I can forgiven him, it's been two months and he's barely been able to nudge me. The problem is, that I think I still like him and I think more so than my now bf...idk what to do. I feel like I settled for a great guy, which doesn't make sense! But when I see the guy I "used" to like, I light up! I instantly want to talk to him and tell him everything. It takes so much energy to not text him or message him in the middle of the day when I don't see him. He is so easy to talk to and he's so honest when he gives feedback. He's hilarious, he makes me laugh like crazy, but he can keep a serious and intelligent conversation. He's a hardworker, he's sarcastic but in a funny way. But he is so oblivious to me...he sees me only as a friend. I like to think that he's jealous now that I have a bf, but I seriously doubt that is the case...my now bf is...idk, he's a hardworker, he's charming and sweet...but I don't feel that compatibility like I do with my old guy friend...I don't want to break it off and break his heart...I want him to break it off! Which is so not good! I decided I wanted to be with him and only a month later I don't?! Why can't I make up my mind? I am so emotional it is driving me nuts!!
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